Reflections on Finishing the 2012 Texas Water Safari
I’ve had a few days to reflect on completing the Texas Water Safari last week. This 260-mile race was undoubtedly the hardest physical challenge I have ever faced. I knew that I would learn some things about myself along the way — things that you can only learn when you find yourself far from the starting line and a long way from the finish line.
A little more than fifty miles into the race I came to the realization that this was not one of our training runs and that we still had days of paddling to go. I had determined before the race that quitting was not an option and that I would not disappoint my son. Making these decisions ahead of time was wise and helped me to overcome the temptation to do otherwise along the way. One thing I learned is that temptation is always at your heels when you attempt to do hard things. When you are physically exhausted, temptation will raise its ugly head and try to convince you that you have gone far enough.
I knew ahead of time that I would hit the wall along the way — and I did, more than once. The wall is that imaginary barrier that tries to separate you from your goal and that becomes more and more real the closer you get to exhaustion. It’s the kind of thing that makes you think you have gone as far as you can possibly go. However, whenever I felt that I could not go on I thought about something that Randy Pausch had written in his book, The Last Lecture: “The brick walls are there to stop the people who don’t want it badly enough. They’re there to stop the other people.”
We have choices when we hit the wall. We can turn around, pack it in, or paddle on. As hard as it was at times, I chose to paddle on and thought about Pausch’s words, “Brick walls are there for a reason. They give us a chance to show how badly we want something.” Jonathan helped me to push past these barriers by moderating my nutrition or by allowing me to take a five-minute dip in the river or by letting me rest for a few minutes. I learned that little adjustments like these along the way revived me, gave me a second wind, and strengthened my resolve to make it to the next checkpoint.
I know that Jonathan could have finished the race in faster time had he had a stronger partner than me. I’m grateful to Jonathan for being patient and for helping me to fulfill a dream one paddle stroke at a time. At the finish line a lady named Tammy came up to me and took my picture. She told me that she had met Jonathan the year before and that he had said he really wanted to do this race with his Dad. “When my husband and I saw you with Jonathan,” she said, “we both cried.” I cried, too — not because I was in any physical pain but because my son had invited me to do something hard with him and we made it to the finish line.
I would never have attempted to do the Texas Water Safari had it not been for Jonathan. As I have said before, I am not crazy about canoeing. It’s not something that I am particularly passionate about or that I love. However, the reason I paddled 260 grueling miles in a canoe is because I love my son (and my daughter, our team captain, who also encouraged me at each checkpoint). I have grown and made a lifetime of memories because my son encouraged me to do something hard with him. It was worth every one of the estimated 250-thousand paddle strokes from start to finish.
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